Empat

" Still i don't know, who am i to you? "











Another day, another , err wait got to stop the music first, can't seem to write anything. This entry is supposed to be sad, got to admit, i can't write with all this noise pushing away all my ideas. Ok stop, music is not noise, and music is not my boyfriend, and wait, i am not emo!

Here's the issue,

It's been months since we're together, tapi aku mula merasa hati kau semakin jauh dari aku. Aku bukan ingin mengatakan bahawa aku tak sayang akan kau, tapi aku tidak rasa kau orang yang sama aku jumpa dahulu. Mungkin, perubahan atmosfera dan persekitaran kau yang buat kau jadi begini? Aku tak faham, please make me understand. I understand that some boys pretend that being ego is the way u show your so called man power, for some reason, could you throw away all that ego and talk like a real man?

All girls, i repeat, ALL GIRLS, want to be treated good, so do i. Alright, clear? Crystal clear, i hope. Yes, i know, i have no right to make you stop smoking, and you always ask me to give you damn good reasons why you have to stop smoking. I said, i don't want to see you kill yourself little by little with that 'choki-choki berasap', cute reason eh? To you.

You can touch me, you can hold my hands, but please, hands off, don't leave a mark, or any scar, wake up and be a man, you can't go and hit a woman like you hit a bastards? Enough.
I don't know why, i can't write a thing about you, you're indescribeable, but in my heart you're incredible. I'll stop writing about you, dear. But still, i don't know who am i to you.

Tapi aku tahu siapa aku di hati mu, dahulu
sebab kau pernah berkata,

Kau la seorang perempuan yang pernah aku sayang lebih dari apa apa,
apa-apa pun terjadi, i can't be moved.
Kau tahu apa aku maksudkan, kau pernah melihatnya kan, sayang?

Yes, and from the day i know that,
you're my man, you can't be moved.